This book is my third baby. It is the story of my life, my rock bottom and my healing journey over a really difficult time. I wrote it for myself initially and as it developed I wrote it for you. For anyone who is on their own healing journey who wants to see and feel how it can be for others. For anyone looking for hope that they can change their life and for anyone who wants to set their own path in life.

A story for hope and healing

I was so nervous to start writing this book. At first, I wanted to write it only for myself, as a beautiful celebration of how far I have come with my healing. As a milestone for the turmoil that has occurred this past year. But I knew that my soul wanted me to share my story, as it has whispered to me for a long time.

That there were people that needed to hear my experience of childhood trauma, survival, high achievement and success and how it all came crashing down. I knew in my heart that so many would identify with parts of my story. That once I had written it down, it wouldn’t feel as scary as it does right now.

The pages of this ebook tell my story. Firstly, I write it for my inner child. For that little girl, who had suffered so much trauma by the tender age of 6. That little girl who wanted to be told that everything was ok. That she was safe. That nothing would happen to her. So that she knows everything is actually ok and has been all along.

Secondly, I write it for me right now. As a 46 year old who spent most of my life denying that I had suffered any trauma and pushing it to the back of my mind. To show her that she is strong, courageous and her story truly matters.

I write it for my kids so they have an idea of what it was like for me living with this trauma every single day of their lives til they were 11 and 4 and not knowing how it was impacting all of us daily.

I write it for my husband, who for 27 years has supported and loved me unconditionally and made me feel safe and loved every single day, even the days I didn’t see it.

I write it for anyone who has suffered any kind of trauma and has suppressed it and suffered in silence or through their body.

I write it for you.

If you have read this far, it is meant for you.

There is something in this book for you to discover about yourself or your journey.